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Category: Journal
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I keep finding myself looking at old photos at night when I should be sleeping. I have over 40,000 photos sorted loosely by year in a folder on my external harddrive. I don’t know what I’m looking for. I used to think I knew who I was. Now I just see pictures of a person…
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I took this photo in the fall of 2013. It’s of the second floor window of a house next to the church I used to go to growing up. Sometimes we would sneak out of services or wander off from VBS and go inside it until an adult would come looking for us. This house…
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Hey Dad, This letter is a long time coming and writing it hasn’t been easy for me. This is all probably going to be new information to you unless Mom has mentioned something to you about it. This subject is sensitive because of all the negativity that surrounds it these days. I’m not sure how…
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my latest labs came back in a decent range. I seem to feel the best when my Estradiol is above 300pg/mL, though I’ve been trying to hit closer to 400. Since we’ve switched to six month checkups I plan to pay out of pocket to test at trough in three month intervals to make sure…
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I saw you for the last time today. You could tell I was ignoring you. You walked by, leaning in to say “I love you anyways.” I love you too mom. Love isn’t supposed to be conditional. I’m sorry I’m not the version of me you had in your head. But I’m not sorry for…
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I never get tired of this email notification popping up on my phone. :3
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It’s 1:40 in the morning, and I should be getting ready for bed, but I’ve been meaning to write this for six months and it’s weighing on me heavily tonight. I came out to you on September 20th of last year. I told you my deepest and longest held secret. I trusted you to still…
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One of my closest friends took his life during Labour Day weekend 2020. We met in high school back in the early 2000’s but weren’t friends until I returned home from military service in 2012. We originally bonded over a shared interest in mountain biking and as we continued to do stuff together a deep…
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I have officially started Hormone Replacement Therapy!! 🤯😁 I’m ridiculously excited and scared at the same time, but I’m confident this is the right choice. My physician was very kind to me and answered every question I had, and addressed my concerns. I decided to go with Plume Healthcare because it seemed like informed consent…
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I cannot believe this shit has happened again. Did we not learn what an awful president he was the first time?? I was getting shit talked by coworkers all night long so I went to the gas station and got some Fire Ball whiskey on the way home. I called a friend that I’ve been…
